Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss’ widow Allison Holker says she wants to purchase – and tear down – the Encino, California motel he tragically took his life at more than two years ago.
Boss, 40, was found dead on December 13, 2022 in room 249 at the Oak Tree Inn in what authorities deemed a suicide via a self-inflicted gunshot to the head.
‘One day, hand on heart, that motel will cease to exist,’ Holker, 36, said in her new memoir This Far: My Story of Love, Loss, and Embracing the Light, which comes out Tuesday.
Holker shared three kids with her late spouse of nine years – daughter Weslie, 16, (who Boss adopted); son Maddox, eight; and daughter Zaia, five. She said she wasn’t yet clear on the ways and means, but the demolition of the site of the tragedy remained a long-term goal on her to-do list.
‘I don’t know how, and I don’t care how much money it costs, but my goal is to buy it and tear it down,’ the So You Think You Can Dance personality said in her controversial memoir. ‘Maybe build in its place a beautiful dance studio.’
The mom-of-three had just celebrated her ninth wedding anniversary with the professional dancer, DJ and TV personality, who appeared on Ellen DeGeneres‘ former daytime talk show, at the time of his passing.
In the forthcoming book – which Boss’ family has clashed with Holker over – the widow of the star said that in the wake of her spouse’s death, ‘it was obvious to [her] that Stephen was trying to communicate with’ her and their family at the Encino home they lived in, which was not too far from the motel he died at.
Holker, who ultimately sold the home in November 2023 – less than a year after her husband’s death – said in the book that her late husband’s presence could be strongly felt in the abode.
‘We had our nightly ritual of sitting in the hot tub, under the stars, and conversing with Stephen,’ Holker said in the book. ‘We could feel his electromagnetic force field in the sky and inside in the lights that flickered in response to questions and comments we’d pose to him.
‘It was a metaphysical connection that we cherished – until we didn’t.’
Holker said that ‘after a while, there was a palpable shift in the house’s energy,’ which impacted the behavior of her two younger children.
‘Maddox and Zaia, who rarely bickered, suddenly started behaving very disagreeably toward each other,’ Holker said. ‘And as wild as this sounds, the electricity became moody, acting up without rhyme or reason. Weslie or I would walk into a room, turn on the light and … nothing.’
Holker added, ‘I know it sounds wild, but it was obvious to me that Stephen was trying to communicate with us.’
Holker said she ‘began to feel spooked by the bed that Stephen and I had shared’ and that ‘it became a nightmare to sleep in it.’
Holker added in the book, ‘Then there were the signs. I started finding stray feathers, which, according to a book I read, represented messages from the deceased.
‘Was Stephen trying to tell me to let go of the house so we could soar instead of feeling stuck?
Holker continued, ‘I had asked Stephen to let me know that he was watching over us. He was almost too vigilant. After a while his presence became overwhelming, and I had to ask him to stop.
‘Weslie and I would have tons of dreams about him, all of which were eerily realistic; Weslie would often see him sitting on the edge of her bed.’
Holker last fall was romantically linked with businessman Adam Edmunds – a Salt Lake City native who is CEO of Entrata, a software firm focused property management.
Holker told People in May of 2023 about the lessons she’s sought to impart on her children in the wake of the family tragedy.
‘I’m trying to teach them – and myself – that if you’re angry or sad, it doesn’t mean you’re a bad person,’ Holker told the outlet. ‘We’re coping together, and that requires trust and being really vulnerable.’
She continued: ‘We lean on each other a lot for support because every single day is a new emotion. And honestly, not even day by day. It’s moment by moment.
‘You never know when something is going to trigger a memory or thought and make you go into your head a little bit, so we make sure to communicate that with each other.’
She said family members have been supportive of one another amid the tough times: ‘We want to be okay – and we are okay – but it’s taking a lot of work together.’
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